I want to run until I can’t feel my legs. I want to pick a direction and drive until I meet the ocean. So she can swallow me in a cold ragging embrace. Always wandering through the throngs of people I meet on the way. Letting silence envelope me as I simply enjoy the moment of peace. To feel pain, screaming and crying until no sound escapes my lips. Understanding everything at the same time as knowing nothing.In the end being free from all that pulls me down that tears off my wings. 

I hate that today we will mourn the dead and cry. But tomorrow we will forget walk back to our own lives leaving behind the sorrow and pain. Thats just human nature though to keep walking even when you’v lost all hope. I only want to say that I wish we as a society could help with the burden of loss. Not to just feel sad for a couple of minutes but to step into the parents shoes and think. What would it be like to loose a piece of yourself to loose they thing that you loved unconditionally that you put before everything else? I wish we could carry some of that pain with us to make it less crushing for those effected.